The question that hit me like a ton of bricks was, “how can I feel like I’m good enough for my partner despite my weight?” I have worried about this since the moment I met Jonathan (and every guy before him) and this is something almost all of my clients struggle with in Live More Weigh Less, so we talk about it A LOT. I am happy to report that after years of worrying I wasn’t good enough for Jonathan because of my weight, I no longer feel this way. I have a deep knowing that he is the luckiest man on earth to be with me AND I am also not at my ideal weight right now.
The question that hit me like a ton of bricks was, “how can I feel like I’m good enough for my partner despite my weight?”
I have worried about this since the moment I met Jonathan (and every guy before him) and this is something almost all of my clients struggle with in Live More Weigh Less, so we talk about it A LOT.
I am happy to report that after years of worrying I wasn’t good enough for Jonathan because of my weight, I no longer feel this way. I have a deep knowing that he is the luckiest man on earth to be with me AND I am also not at my ideal weight right now.
- The reason we are programmed to think we are not worthy of our partners because of our weight is because we have attached so many character flaws to our physical state. Subconsciously we believe that if we are overweight we are also lazy, unsexy, stressed out, grumpy, frumpy, masculine, volatile, flat, etc, etc. Now, you may be that way, but that has nothing to do with your weight. Those character traits come from not nurturing the parts of us we want to exude, usually because we are putting so much energy on trying to lose weight whilst ignoring becoming the person we long to become. Take some time to identify what characteristics you are associating with being overweight and then get real with yourself. Are you actually that way? If so, do you long to be different? How can you put attention on those qualities directly instead of solely focusing on your weight?
- So here’s the deal, not only is it not true that you are unworthy because of your weight, but it’s also not true that you are unworthy because of how you are acting, what is true is that you feeling unworthy of your partner has nothing to do with them at all! You feeling unworthy of them just means that you don’t like yourself, or that you are not living up to your potential. It is so easy to project how we are feeling about ourselves onto our partners and blaming it on our weight but when we peel back the layers, it just means you aren’t completely in love with yourself. Let me give you an example. Since having Annabelle I have not felt sexy at all. At first I went into this whole thing about how because I had gained weight since having Annabelle that Jonathan didn’t think I was sexy. Then I remembered that sexiness comes from within not from how I look so I judged myself for not cultivating my sexiness for my relationship. AND THEN I asked myself if I longed to feel sexier for me. Nope. Here’s the reality, that part of me will come back, and I nurture it a little bit more every day, but I am letting myself sink into this postpartum phase and give it the space it deserves (a blog post for another time). All of this is to say, when you follow the thread back to yourself, you may find you have total acceptance for that part of you, especially when you know there will be a time and place to cultivate it in the future.
- This is the most important one: you are not your body. You have a body, you are not a body. Your partner married a whole, dynamic, multilayered, complicated woman! Saying you are not worthy of your partner because of your weight is like saying you aren’t worthy of your partner because of your shoe size, your hair color or your ethnicity. I can’t believe my husband married me, I have size 9 feet! Can you imagine? This is the thing I keep coming back to in my relationship right now. I am still me, even if my tummy is stretched out and my cheeks are chubbier. I am still fun, loving, interesting, smart, and I don’t let my weight dim those things (this is key).
It is a terrible feeling to believe we are not worthy of our partners and it is even harder to not truly love ourselves. The best first step is to separate how we look from the way exist in the world and then we can do the work to accept the way we are and grow in certain areas if we choose to. What I have seen with myself and the many of women I’ve worked with in Live More Weigh Less is that when we are taking care of the human/soul part of us, which will allow us to feel unconditional love in our relationship, it is so much easier to take care of our bodies and move towards feeling physically strong and energized, but then that’s just icing on the cake!
Being a woman isn’t always easy, and we need each other to move through some of these difficult topics. If you know someone who is struggling with this or who may find this helpful, I hope you’ll send them this article. Why stay on the surface when we can get deep and real with each other?
In the comments, I would love to know if you’ve experienced this feeling before? Now that you have some insight, what you do you think it’s actually about?
Looking forward to hearing from you.