Aries Fire, Virgo Truth— and Inanna’s message for you
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You know that feeling when you just know everyone is staring at you thinking “I can’t believe she’s eating that” or “Who does she think she is wearing that dress?” or “Whoa, she really needs to lose a few”.
We’re scared to get together with an old friend, don’t want to go to that party or hate eating in front of our co-workers because we just feel so judged.
And most of us think that the only way to get them to stop talking about us behind our backs is to lose weight.
Not true.
The reality is that these people are most definitely not talking about you behind your back. Maybe .0001% of the time someone is, but they are probably a loser who feels fatter than you. What’s happening is you’re projecting. Since you’re embarrassed by your eating habits and the way you look you assume that’s all the people around you are thinking. I know it feels real, but I promise, it’s all in your head.
To make it go away, you need to deal with the embarrassment. But here’s the kicker, though it may feel like you are embarrassed by how you look, I know from experience that you are actually embarrassed by how you are taking care of yourself.
The most profound disappointment we experience as humans is not being in integrity with our desires. Though we focus on our appearance, all of us have a “taking care of ourselves recipe” for what it will take to look a certain way. When we’re at the perfect weight we imagine ourselves enjoying our food, eating lots of vegetables, moving our bodies, enjoying sex, wearing great clothes, smiling at strangers, getting our work done on time, and being super relaxed. But we believe that once we lose weight, that’s when we’ll start doing those things, but we actually need to do those things in order to lose weight.
When you are feeling like you couldn’t possibly show up to that wedding because you just look terrible, what you are actually experiencing is the deep disappointment of letting yourself down for not taking better care of yourself. Our culture has just brainwashed us to think it’s all about how we look.
When my clients and I lay out a clear picture of what it looks like to take care of ourselves, and we stick to it, even for just two to three days, we can look exactly the same and feel completely different around our peers. If you don’t believe it, I dare you to try it.
The key is laying out a recipe for taking care of yourself that is realistic and feels good, here’s mine:
Even on this plan, my weight fluctuates with my periods, extra eating on the weekends, vacations, odd cravings, and moving my body more or less… it’s just part of life, gaining and losing, especially for women.
But when I am in integrity with what it looks like for me to take care of myself, I never feel judged. Maybe because I know that if I was, I could confidently say “This is the life I am consciously choosing, and this is what my body is doing this week as a result. I’m happy, I’m loved, I feel beautiful, that’s what matters.”
Today, I want you to write down your recipe for taking care of yourself, and I’d love for you to give us some of the highlights in the comments below.
And I want you to see if after you stick to it for a few days, if your feelings of being judged start to fade away.
Can’t wait to talk with you about this more.
Looking for more Sacred body healing support? Check out my free, on-demand masterclass, The New Body Paradigm, or check out Radiance, my high-end, Sacred body program.
Love,
Sarah
Simple actions to take your life back, know your worth & feel alive no matter how drained, overwhelmed and far gone you feel.
1 Comment
This is incredible and so so true – it’s not about the outside it’s about what’s going on on the inside. The day I have like you said fulfilled my own ‘take care of myself recipe’ i feel accomplished and confident and it’s almost like it doesn’t matter if someone thinks this or that because I am insulated by the fact that I have done what I can to look after myself today and my actions haven’t let me down and that builds a bubble of protection and control around you. It’s the days where you have let yourself go and are being unkind to yourself and spiralling or not doing what you know you need to feel good that you are so self conscious and feel vulnerable as you have no inner platform to support you so are subject to others’ opinions. There will be no difference between my weight between let’s say the Monday and Tuesday but if on Tuesday I have done what I need to (even if no results are showing in the mirror) I don’t feel as disgusting as I would if I had neglected self care or routine. And when I use the term disgusting it’s like you said a projection of bad self care onto my body, not my actual body – it’s the lack of control and taking action over my life that I am disgusted by and that manifests in poor self image.