Reflections on my Sacred Initiation
I remember walking around my yard in the paths my Dad used to cut with the lawn mower. I walked into the tall grass and I could feel the magic. I could see the sparks of light rise from the blades of grass. I could hear the bugs talking about the weather. I could feel a strong current of energy that connected me to the rocks, the trees, and birds. But I had no idea what it was or what to do with it. I just looked and looked for something to hold onto. Something tangible so I could really taste and smell and talk to the magic.
So I asked for a magic wand for my birthday. I longed to make cupcakes appear out of thin air, to grow wings and fly, to turn mushrooms into bunny rabbits. I knew that magic was real- I was feeling it every day, so you can imagine my heartbreak when my wand didn’t work. I turned to my Mom with tears in my eyes and told her my wand was broken.
I started to take out books on Ancient Egypt from the library and somehow got my hands on a Tarot deck. I worked regularly with a Ouija board, and I would collect butterfly wings, mud, and flower petals to make potions.
Over the years, as I found out Santa wasn’t real and that I was never going to fly, I stopped feeling the magic. I was so sad to learn the world wasn’t filled with fairies, witches, and spells. Everything became two dimensional. I believed in God, but it felt more about heaven and this “other place” that was magic that I would visit when I died. I felt a sense of trust and safety knowing God was around, but it didn’t feel like that exciting fairy tale magic.
Then ten years ago I started to learn about spirituality, meditation, the Secret, energy, family constellation, angels, and guides. I practiced manifestation and talking to my angels. Then I stepped into a Priestess Initiate path of the 13 Moon Mystery School and experienced magic first hand, like when I could hear the trees talk or when I could see the whole room filled with rainbows. I could start to see how I was being schooled, guided and taught. Every event in my life became a clue on my journey. I could start to see the great story of my life unfolding. Rituals, following the moon and the occasional spell, became strongholds in my life and I saw wish after wish come true.
And finally, after years of practice I finally could see, MAGIC IS REAL! Like as real as you and me. We just have to learn how to “speak it”. It’s kind of like learning Chinese. If I was in the room with two people speaking Chinese, I would have no idea what they were saying, it would just be gibberish, but I don’t question that they are speaking a language just because I can’t understand it.
Here’s what I need you to get: Magic is talking all the time. You can actually hear it and see it- it just isn’t registering because you don’t speak the language yet (or maybe you do and you know exactly what I’m talking about).
But here is the thing that is so cool. Magic is the thread that connects us all, it’s the intelligence of the Earth that creates the seasons, the moon cycle and our menstrual cycle. It’s in the relationship between the flowers and the bees and the trees and birds. It’s the peace we feel by the ocean or the silence in the first snowfall. We are part of this weaving, of this language, whether we are aware of it or not.
We are all magic. YOU ARE MAGIC!
Just like every animal, plant and bug have a purpose in the ecosystem and a perfect way of supporting the whole, you too have something that is needed to support the whole.
You have a certain magic inside of you that your soul chose for this lifetime (and maybe some other lifetimes) to put into this amazing tapestry of life. It may not come out as being a tarot reader, herbalist, witch or anything traditionally “magical”, but you have this inner, unexplainable light, this essence, this unique flavor that you’ve probably known about or felt for a while, but don’t pay much attention to.
Maybe you secretly hoped this was true about yourself, but gave up on it.
Maybe you think you’re being crazy, or arrogant or too out there.
Maybe when you look inside, you can feel this part of you that looks like a firework ready to explode and it just feels too big and weird so you put it out.
That is your magic. It isn’t your job, or even your purpose, it’s just this real, authentic, wise, timeless part of you. It’s the essence of who you are.
I want to invite you to let that Magic OUT. To be the real YOU with your kids and your partner and your friends and the checkout woman at the grocery store.
So much good happens when you let out your Magic. You feel less energetically constipated, time stretches, the world sparkles, often abundance flows more easily, work is more fulfilling and you can be of greater service.
Most importantly, there’s just something so fun about getting to be You. That’s what you came here to do anyway. To sort through all the muck and confusion and find out who you get to be in this lifetime. The challenges, and fear and other people telling us it isn’t a good idea to be who we are, all those things just help us to be even more committed to our magic.
I know that I’m here to help you remember that you are magic AND to help you uncover what your unique magic is. We are going to be spending an entire weekend dedicated to uncovering and remembering your magic, your wisdom, your essence. We will spend our days in sacred ceremony. We will walk in silence in the snowy woods. We will gather around the hearth and share what we are uncovering and laugh and cheer at the excitement of witnessing our sisters come into full alignment with themselves.
The whole Wise Woman Winter Weekend will be about this sacred s p a c e . To really be in the energy of winter, of the void, potent magic needs this tight container.
But I don’t want to leave you with just discovering your magic. I believe it is essential to bring magic into your everyday. So we are going to be doing strategy work together during a bonus 3-hour online group video workshop a week after the retreat. This will give you time to integrate the pieces of yourself you uncovered, and we can plan out all of the details of your life from your daily rhythm to the arch of the entire year. We are really going to get into the nitty-gritty of your vision, plan, and schedule so you have ultimate clarity for your year and beyond.
We only have 25 spots, and we are nearly halfway full, so now is the time to join us.
I can’t wait to get to know you better. It’s going to be an incredible journey.
Simple actions to take your life back, know your worth & feel alive no matter how drained, overwhelmed and far gone you feel.