Do You Know What You Actually Deserve?
It’s been a while! How are you? I’ve spent the past few weeks getting the new Live More Weigh Less Mastery class oriented in the program and taking a much needed break from writing. And on the home front, things have been a bit… well… let me tell you about it.
Last Sunday morning I found my 11 month old, Annabelle, eating toilet paper… out of the toilet (I know), and on Tuesday she fell off the changing table while my head was turned and broke her collarbone. Layer on Marshall’s seemingly relentless tantrums and refusal to go to sleep at night, and I’m feeling like a seriously bad mom.
Of course I can take a step back and see that accidents happen and toddlers will be toddlers but there’s no denying the emotional pain of that nagging voice inside your head that berates you for every little thing you’ve done wrong.
The truth is that I’m still in it and I’m sure I will have a lot to say on this in the future, but here’s the first three steps I’m taking:
By Thursday she was teaching herself how to walk. And now, just one week later, she is fully walking. I’ve always been told that kids are resilient, but to watch it in action has been so humbling. I feel like I’m watching the raw magic of the human spirit: feel your feelings, let it go, and make life even better than it could have been before. I’m taking serious notes.
So I’m here, loving myself through the ups and downs and wishing you the space and understanding to do the same.
And because we can never hear it enough, you’re a great Mom, and I hope you take pride that your kid didn’t eat toilet paper out of the toilet this week.
When was the last time you felt like a bad mom? What did you do to make yourself feel better? Please tell us in the comments.
And if you know a mom who struggles with this, or needs a community of women who will take her exactly as she is, please send this to her. I’d love to welcome her to the fold.
Simple actions to take your life back, know your worth & feel alive no matter how drained, overwhelmed and far gone you feel.