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I’m having one of those days where I don’t even know if I should tell you this because it’s fresh and raw and nothing is clear, but since my whole business strategy is to be real, I’m going to tell you anyways.
Last week was dark. Jonathan and I think it was the hardest week we’ve had as parents. Both kids, our nanny and Jonathan got the flu twice in ten days, the days were full of tantrums and tears, and the nights were full of puking and screaming. We were getting about 3 hours of sleep a night, and not all at one time.
Although there are significantly worse things that could happen to a parent, we were in crisis. There’s a reason they use sleep deprivation as a form or torture. And at the end of the week, we decided to part ways with our nanny. It was a natural part of our transition to the east coast, but hard nonetheless. If you’ve had a caregiver who’s been part of your family, you know how gut wrenching that is. I’m feeling wrung out and very emotional.
There’s one other detail you should know…
The week before the flu apocalypse, I was away with a friend of mine doing some deep spiritual and strategy work around the next chapter of my life and my work. I got incredible clarity about what I am meant to do next (I’ll be sharing it with you soon) and how much I longed to have a deeper relationship with my children. The second morning of my trip, I pulled the Creator Destroyer card from my 13 Moon Mystery School deck (my teacher is leading her annual Priestess Initiation right now if you feel called) which has a picture of Kali in all of her powerful destruction. Whenever she shows up, I know shit is going to go down. I hoped she would be gentle with me (HA!) and put her on my altar.
It is not lost on me that I started this two week period with intense clarity and commitment to my future, and completed with a major ending of my past. I can see how I am being guided to go deeper into the cocoon of my family, and how I am slowly untying from my life in San Francisco.
So what’s the plan? Good question. The only thing I know is that I will be home with my kids full time for a month-ish. We have grandparents in town, a trip to Boston and I’ll patch together some babysitting to get a break and write to you.
And get this: my business, for the most part, is running without me. Besides a long list of emails I want to write for you, my team is a completely self-sufficient, managing current Live More Weigh Less Members and growing things as needed. I want to take some time to talk about this, because as Mother and Entrepreneur, this is important.
A few things I want you to know about how my business, and how I got it to this point.
- My work is very important to me, so I give it the energy it deserves when it needs it. My work feeds me emotionally, and it feeds us financially. It is not a deliberate distraction from my kids (though I do use it as an escape or excuse a lot – working on that), and it is not a frivolous, or selfish thing. I think we can get into a place and dismiss our work as just money, but that money is allowing me to do the very deep work of healing some wounds I have around Motherhood right now, and there is nothing frivolous about that. And it’s ok to want that abundance and stability.
- As my Dad would say, luck has nothing to do with it. The business didn’t get like this by accident. I deliberately created a business that I didn’t have to pay attention to every day. I actually haven’t worked for three weeks! But this season was preceded by a lot of education, hard work, and ruthless implementation. Everything I have created, I learned from Marie Forleo in her B-School program. I am not exaggerating. Her free training is out right now, and you can learn about how to create a successful business online, for free, here: Watch this awesome video. As my Dad would say, luck has nothing to do with it.
- It takes time, and you’ll be grateful you worked for it someday. If you are nowhere near this place in your business, but long for it, know that there will be a time in the not too distant future, when your kids are 3, 5 or 10 years older and you hit rock bottom, and you will look back and think, “I am so grateful for my past self for just having the faith, chutzpah, foresight and energy to start the path of creating this business I can rely on and that is holding me and my family right now through this hard time.” I have been saying this to myself everyday.
So as I sit in the discomfort of this major initiation and transition, I am clear that there are two things that I can lean on: the structure and stability of my work and my connection to magic to see the lesson and guidance of it all.
Because I am so grateful for everything I’ve learned in B-School over the years, and how it has positively impacted my life, I am partnering with Marie to bring you a one of kind Bonus when you enroll through me when she opens her doors for enrollment on Wednesday, February 22. Make sure you open my email on Wednesday, because you’ll need to enroll through my unique link. This year I thought long and hard about how I wanted to serve women entrepreneurs and what would be the most creative, spiritual and intimate thing I could think of.
So… along with my favorite online programs and my Live Now Mala, I will also be offering a one-day, in-person Sacred Business Circle at my home in San Francisco limited to 20 women. If we have more demand, I’ll open a second day. I am SO excited to be offering this sacred container to a select group of women who feel called to explore their soul’s calling and lean on the divine feminine for guidance and inspiration in their work in the world. I’ll be sharing more about this sacred circle and my other bonuses in the coming weeks, so make sure to open all of your emails from me. If you are interested in attending, but have already taken B-School, please email us at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Thanks for taking the time to be with me today, I continue to be so fed by our connection, even in this small way.
Cheering you on and seeing you in your highest potential, as always.
Lots of love,
P.S. The video Marie released today is my favorite by far, you’re going to learn the 7 most common excuses that hold new entrepreneurs back from meaningful growth and how to overcome them. Marie takes a stand for your dreams and holds them tight so they won’t slip away. You’ll also hear how other creatives rose up to overcome their obstacles and how you can too. You can watch for free here.
P.P.S. I’m a proud affiliate of B-School and although I may earn a referral fee based on my recommendation, I only share programs that I have personally experienced first-hand and really believe have the power to help you create the life you deserve.