I remember it like it was yesterday. I was curled up in the fetal position on my tiny couch in our 300 square-foot studio. There was a homeless man yelling outside my window and a mouse had just scurried across my miniscule kitchen. The only thing left in my college-sized refrigerator was a bunch of wilted kale because I had just polished off an entire pint of coffee ice cream, leftover general tsao’s chicken and half a bottle of white wine.
I felt sick, numb, scared and hopeless. Why couldn’t I just get a handle on my eating? Why was this such a struggle for me? I never thought about ending my life, but I certainly considered giving up on being happy. Maybe this was just the way I was going to be… miserable, fat, boring, broke and in a constant struggle… forever.
Earlier that day I had a session with my only health coaching client (we had talked about the horrors of dairy and sugar, ironic), I worked a 3-hour shift at Anthropologie and organized receipts for my personal assistant gig. I had been out of nutrition school for two months and out of work for three. My savings were quickly dwindling, and it was looking like I was going to have to give up my dream of being a health coach in NYC, move in with my parents and get a real job.
Nothing was going right and I blamed it all on my body. Why would anyone want to work with me? Why would my boyfriend want to marry me? Why would anyone want to be my friend? I was so chubby, ugly and insecure.
I fantasized about walking into a room of women in size 4 jeans, a cheery smile on, an acne free face and being bombarded by women wanting to work with me. I want what she has, they would think. I dreamt of the day I actually wanted to be naked in front of my man, feeling sexy and feminine in nothing but his shirt (instead of barely being able to button it). I longed to have the urge to go to yoga, to make meditation a daily routine and actually crave salad. I envisioned making so much money that I could buy whatever I wanted and travel the world. And my weight was stealing all of that from me.
I just wanted out of body jail, NOW!
I could feel the anger bubbling up from my gut. WHY WAS I STUCK IN THIS HIDEOUS BODY?! WHY DID GOD HATE ME SO MUCH?! WHY COULDN’T I JUST GET MY SH*T TOGETHER!? WHY WHY WHY?! I cried and screamed and punched the couch. I dug my nails into my thighs with such hatred, I left purple welts.
In my mind it was simple: just cut out gluten, dairy and sugar for a month, go to the gym every day and I’d lose weight. Then my life would be completely different. All the things I wanted so bad were just a diet away. How hard could that be? Apparently, virtually impossible since I’ve been stuck in this rut for over a decade.
But I couldn’t let go of the diet and that promise that everything could be better if I just figured out this one part of my life. It was all I could think about and being thin was all that I wanted.
Yet, on the couch that night with a pile of tissues filling up the empty pint of coffee ice cream on the floor, something made me go deeper. Underneath the diets and the deep desire to be thin, was a quiet, clear, steady voice of reason. She told me that I didn’t need to try harder, I needed to give up, and try something different. Instead of tightening up my hiking boots and continuing up the mountain, I needed to turn around and take a different path.
I sat up and wrote down a different plan. A plan that didn’t involve restriction, hatred and force, but a plan that focused on fun, adventure, soul-searching, prayer and ease.
You see, I used to think I needed to weigh less in order to live more, but that wise voice inside urged me to consider that the opposite is true. I had to turn away from the obsession of dieting and being thin, and focus on my life.
That plan got me out of body jail and resulted in business success, a proposal, a thirty pound weight loss and lots of joy – all within a few months. And what’s amazing is that I now travel when I want to (with and without my two babies), I love being naked in front of my husband (I don’t even need his shirt) and people do tell me all the time that they “want what I have”. But none of this is because I figured out how to stick to my diet or because I’m a size 4 (I’m not). It’s because I’ve created a very specific lifestyle that results in getting the exact life (in many ways a better life) that I thought I needed to lose weight to have, and what’s amazing is that this same lifestyle is what has lead me to have my ideal body.
In the years since hitting rock bottom on my couch and the subsequent clarity (don’t you love how that works?) I created and perfected a six-step program for getting out of body jail called, Live More Weigh Less. I’ve led private workshops all over the country and for incredible companies like Google and Williams-Sonoma. I’ve written for and been interviewed by publications like Glamour, Parents, Health, Success Magazine, The Boston Globe and Martha Stewart Weddings. And I have personally coached thousands of women in 33 countries in my online coaching program and community, Live More Weigh Less.
Today I released (for a limited time) a three-part video training program to guide you through the six steps of the Live More Weigh Less Lifestyle for free. You can watch the first video right in the comfort and privacy of your own home (or office) by clicking this link now.
Once you sign up for the free program on this page, you’ll automatically receive the second and third video in the next few days. I want to make sure you have time to integrate each step so you can adopt these habits and make lasting change.
You’ll notice really quickly that I’m not like most nutritionists or health coaches. This is not a quick-fix diet plan, and I don’t tell you about some secret supplement or magic workout routine that’s going to help you lose twenty pounds in a week.
I want to warn you that these videos are a bit different than what you’re used to from me. In them I get to the core of what it means to get out of body-jail and am honest about what it really takes to have your ideal body. I teach you a lot more than I can in my weekly blogs and I know that if you can bring your focus and an open-mind, you’re going to learn a completely new approach to weight loss that could change everything for you.
Watch the first video in the Live More Weigh Less FREE Video Training Program by clicking here now.
I struggled with my weight for over half my life, and I often think about what it would’ve been like if someone had given me this information a little sooner. Though I know there’s been no mistakes in my life, I do hope this training can save you some years of shame, struggle and restriction.
You don’t have to live in a body you hate, and you certainly don’t need to go on some painful diet to get to your ideal weight. You just need someone who gets you to give you some simple steps and some straight advice so you can feel beautiful and truly happy.
This training is totally free, but they aren’t going to be available for very long, so make sure you sign up while you have a chance.
Also, We have an incredible crew of women here who are going through a lot of the same stuff as you, so I really hope you’ll reach out in the comments under the first video and tell us about yourself.
I can’t wait to connect with you in the comments and help you create an amazing life and body you love. It’s going to be powerful.